The three most difficult words in my dictionary
To Let Go, whether it is an event or a prized possession or more difficult a person. I find it extremely difficult to even to think about letting go. I have heard countless suggestions and saying about the reason you would need to let go and why it could be the best for you but indeed its a heart-wrenching process especially if it is a person.
How many times have I done it in the past? Oh yeah! many a times but why does it feel extremely difficult like its your first time whenever you have to move on in life or leave someone for good (what is good? They say, you will eventually find out. If I live o see it, may be!), trying hard not to think about what possibly went wrong when you put your heart and soul for it to be cordial.
And to think about it again and again makes me feel miserable, awkward and helpless.Oh no, I am not wanting this to a self-pity party! How could I pity myself when in the first place if I decided not get into the slump, the world would have still looked beautiful. I am not going to blame the person involved, which could be the best way to do. Right-the blame game is not around the corner too! Or I guess I am past all those easy evasive ways.
So what's is my worry? Here it is. I keep wondering.. and wondering and wondering What must have gone wrong or unnoticed? When you give your best and leave the rest, and the rest does not do
any justice the best you gave. What happens? That is how I feel now. I know life is not Google to give you some billion possibilities or answers in some nano seconds. So Life says, here is the deal. You move on and I ll try to tell you what might have went wrong. Oh of course, sickening way to help you , I say!
OK another possibility. I decide to let go some one who meant so much to me and have meticulously tried all possibilities to forget the sourness and get away or live with it. Here comes the next step of difficulties. The next time you think not twice but thrice but umpteen number of times before you decide to get close with someone.There again you are going to hurt someone by not letting them in. So it haunts you wherever you go, my personal ghost!
Sometimes life seems to be such a clutter. Think again, it is mostly the clutter put by you to analyse it later but never looked back. They seem to pile up and become toxic. I know there is always a choice, I am weighing the possible choices but the choice to get back the person still could be the best ,may be not the easy one.
Well, it seems to be one of those times, for now!!!
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